I wanted to give everyone an update on why I haven’t really been all that active here but first, I would like to thank everyone for their birthday wishes! It really means a lot to me!
Alright, so here the information that I have been dealing with for the past few months…
In November, my mother was diagnosed with Breast Cancer and she is currently undergoing radiation as treatment. She is my best friend so I have been really worried about this and have been doing a lot more around the house so that she does not have to.
In December, my father passed away from a pulmonary embolism. This really shook me to my core because I was a huge daddy’s girl. He was the most similar to me in personality and understood my mental illnesses the most because he had them himself. For those of you who don’t know, I have Borderline Personality Disorder, Major Depression Disorder and Social Phobia (my father had the Depression part only though).
In January, the love of my life passed away (actually, he passed away in September but his family only gave me notice recently – nice, right?) He had stage four colon cancer and this really devastated me. He was only 36 and I don’t think a day has gone by that I haven’t cried myself to sleep.
I’m struggling with my daily life because my depression is the worst it has ever been and most days I don’t even want to go on. I am not telling you all this to get pity, I am telling you this in case I don’t respond to your messages or comment on things. I feel horrible that I have not done so these past few months but I felt like you all should know the reason.
Thank you for your time.